She's charmaine
born on 30thMay'90,
making her sweet16
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Ohmy, i think i've fallen in love with blogging again. I've been doing nothing but blogging the entire night. Ok, i've done my chemistry corrections and english oral thingy, but i haven't studied for the actual test. Oh Eliz, what have you done to yourself. Why are you this little oh-can't-be-bothered girl all over again.
Maybe it's the DSA rejection, i fucking don't know.
But then again, why am i feeling like this?
I didn't get through to JC by DSA. But is that what i really want? To get into a JC? Be a college student? Or is it because i've been pressured to get into one? Truthfully, i think i'm becoming what THEY want me to be. I wanna be a fricking designer and that's it! I don't need others to tell me what to do. I wanna be this, not that. Face it parents. Face it people. I, C. E. Tan, doesn't wanna hit the books again =( i wanna design! I wanna be the person i really am.
My dad just told me i'm addicted to the computer/hp.
Am i really? I turn on the computer cause i want the music, and the company.
I use my hp, cause i wanna keep in touch with people, is that addiction?
At least i don't play maple or some other rpg game, at least i don't play xbox that much..
Am I such a pathetic teen, who doesn't care about anything?
Am I such a spending-freak, who doesn't care about saving?
Seriously, i don't think i'm that bad.
Or maybe, fuck, i am.
am i? sigh.
at 11:48 PM