She's charmaine
born on 30thMay'90,
making her sweet16
Sunday, September 10, 2006
the day was totally fruitless.. damn, i could really feel how empty it was. no studying.. no practicing.. and that made me so much more worried & less confident. seriously, i wish i'd come home straight from lunch instead of visiting my sis & mum's godmothers.. it was an utter waste of time, and also an addition of demoralizing comments.
the morning was -fab- cause duh, i was in church..
thanks Clare, Chris & Shar for the fun times. Though Clare was kinda down and everything.. i hope that i cheered her up :D
smile woman :D you know i'm always here for ya. best friends for life <3
so yeah. church was great. it was the new priest saying the mass & all. he was ermm.. not my type. don't know if people liked it or not. different people, different taste. but.. i got the message.. and every week.. i'm touched by God and his gooodness & grace :D and i believe that he will help me & provide me with what's best for me! i'll trust in him. heh- so after that, we went to my grandpa's 'condo' [well, that's what my grandma called it]. it's the columbarium lahs. lols. it's his birthday today. if he was still alive and kicking.. he'd be 82 years old.. like wow. heaven's better than earth anyways..
anyways.. up next was the DEMORALIZING part.
the first thing they said to me when I stepped into their house was: so how's your results? number of As? JC right? my ans: my results are fairly okay.. i have been getting a couple of As [wrong] and.. i want to go poly.
dang.
they stared at me with eyes like some huge watermelon. "why poly?! aiyah, you shoud go JC you know.." that was the thing they said.. like *WHADDA* i was fuming. and even he sided them.. and said he "just want me to choose and decide by myself". you agreed, and this is how you fend for your own nu er? what the toooot?
oh yah they also said that ARTS/DESIGN career is a total *slack*
wth. design is a necessity of life. if not who the hell will help you create that SOFA u sit on.
*grrr. i was THAT angry.. i just walked off and sat in front of the teevee. grr.
and then they started the nonsense about the house.. i don't want to elaborate further.. it'll just kill. but thank God i had Matt for company. thank you thank you (: oh yeaa.. i had Sharon's company tooo!
yet it wasn't fufilling. yeah i'm that sad.. spank me.
*RAHHHH
how am I going to sit for a thing called SHSS PRELIMINARY EXAMINATIONS at this rate that i'm going?!
sigh.. maybe i'm just having low self esteem & lack of confidence~
i'll just got to find a way to get my confidence up there [damn hard lah =x]
-don't ask me why, but i keep thinking about how i'm going to spend my nov-march break job's money.. lol-
okay i'm going to stop here;
at 10:54 PM