She's charmaine
born on 30thMay'90,
making her sweet16
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
sorry for the lack in update. have been thinking over some stuff recently.
im pretty lost now. had a conversation with someone over the phone regarding career choices last night. i told that someone i wanted to get a career in the designs as an art director [if i could ever get there]. but facing reality, it is tough, and if i don't get there, i can't even go far.
so i've been asking myself..
where should i go after Os?
where should i go after my tertiary education?
what if i become jobless after going to poly/uni blah blah.. just because i chose design? is it even practical in the first place? currently, i use designing to destress, but what if 10 years down the road, designing is the one that drives me nuts? what am i going to do to destress then? i have other options, such as tourism or being a magazine editor and all that. i even felt like working with children. that's the big problem you see. i know what i want, but what is practical? everyone has at least decided roughly what they wanna do or where they wanna go.
they have a goal, but what about me? i don't.
people tell me to persevere and excel wherever i feel i can, but is there a possiblity that my downfall then would be my passion now?
even if i get into the first 3 weeks of jc, i don't think it will make my decisions easier.
God, help me.
at 9:21 AM