She's charmaine
born on 30thMay'90,
making her sweet16
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
although i'm wearing my shss uniform, i'm taking bus 21/59.. and not 22. All the current hildans who waits for the bus at the stop opposite my house would look at me when i board 21/59, or not board 22. the only addition to my uniform would be the tpjc collar pin.. which i repeatedly forget to put on, or even take off when i dump my shirt into the washer. i miss shss, i promise.
i used to tell friends how great it'll be to move off to another school for my tertiary education in jc or poly.. at that time, getting out of shss and away from all the rules, naggy teachers and some people seemed like the best idea ever. but now, i don't even think that its even considered a good idea.
i miss the recesses with PeiYun, KeLi & Yiru.
i miss the choir practices with my lovely altos.
i miss the days when my conductors really respected us all.. and was open to opinions. as professional as he/she was.. they opened their minds.. and allowed suggestions, comments.. and even preferences. they don't even emphasize that they were superior. they were more like a friend to us.
i miss the lessons when the guys would just make noise and the girls would laugh along, some even playing and fooling along with them.
I miss 3B/4G.. the lab lessons.. the days when chemistry practical ended later.. or watching movies during English lessons.
Even physics was fun. Just 3 months ago, physics was fun.
i miss the days when KL and my other chinese friends would try and help me with Chinese, and even try and educate me with the chinese entertainment world.
true, i've made new friends.. and i'm loving them. but i miss the good food in the canteen and a company which i feel more attached to. we could practically laugh about the lamest stuff, and even comfort each other in times of sadness.
true, now i'm in a school which choir is respected. but teaching my choir mates [with the perseverance and the wanting to be at the same level as us SLs] in shss was what make me feel good and that i've achieved something. the choir may be respected, but i don't feel this connection with singing anymore. it's not the quality of the choir.. it's the love and effort i see my members put in that makes me love singing and thus wanting to carry on to teach even more people & spread the joy of singing.
true, now i'm suppose to be more matured.. and 07s16 is a rocking class.. but 4G has already been etched in my mind and will never leave. what 4G did every other day.. their lameness and running around.. making fun of stuf & people. it felt more like a family than friends. 07s16 has rocking friends, but 4G is like one big happy family (:
true, sciences are tough. but mrs ong and mrs lim made me appreciate them so much more. but now, the teachers seem so far away. not connected to us, and not spontaneous enough. i just miss those days when mrs lim would crack jokes.. and mrs ong tried to make herself lamer. damn, those were the days.
true, chinese isn't something i'm good at.. but my teacher now is so monotonous.. and she talks so fast.. and i catch nothing. i don't really get the same support as my friends used to gave me for my studying of chinese and even knowning more about chinese stuff (e.g music and movies). even my sec4 chinese teacher gave me the support. if it wasn't for her & my lovely friends.. i doubt my chinese would have improved from a C5/B4 standard to a high B3 standard. sucha loving bunch would definitely be remembered and loved forever.
no wonder they always say..
once a hildan, always a hildan.
but the sad thing is, we gotta go forward.. not backwards. hahahas.
shss has taught me a lot. seriously, a lot.
thank you my alma mater (:
at 11:35 PM