She's charmaine
born on 30thMay'90,
making her sweet16
Friday, February 9, 2007
in about13 hours..
i would be receiving that something i've been waiting for..
it has been about.. 2months plus since i finished my exams..
and all i can do is wait for 13 hours.
no doubt i'm having the butterflies in my stomach..
no doubt i have the fear that i'll end up in a course i don't want to go.
no doubt i'm fearing CNY,
cause it's when all the relatives will start pouring stress on me instead of prosperity.
actually, i don't have to wait till CNY.
by the time i get my results, people will start smsing and calling.
i've seen my cousins get it.. but the thing is, they don't have to worry.
single pointers (except for one who ended up in Poly cause he failed his english)
i might be the eldest in my direct family (mummy, daddy, siblings)..
but i'm not even close to being the eldest...
the amount of stress i get seriously kills me.. but the worse thing is i can't avoid it.
but my chemistry teacher said something really comforting to me today..
and i must say.. i touched me.
she told me that no matter what.. i should do what i wanna do, and what i'm interested in doing.
she knows its easier said than done.. but it's easier to do this now, than to change next time when you alr completed a masters or a degree. you can't go back.
and when i told her that my parents aren't really happy about the whole poly thing..
the one thing she told me was simply..
when you follow your dreams and make it..
they will be happier for you.. than they are if they force you now.
i know what i wanna do.
but can i make it?
i'll only know later.. at 2.30pm.
God bless everyone =)
at 1:06 AM